wuthering heights

"If he loved you with all the power of his soul for a whole lifetime, he couldn't love you as much as I do in a single day.

-Heathcliff

Such a small thing said, but the significance of each word is eternal.

real talk

If you really knew me you'd know that Saturdays are my favorite day.
It's where you can create your own day.
If you really knew me you'd know that I waste 50% of my day on Netflix.
....I'm not too ashamed of it..
If you really knew me you'd know that I prefer listening over talking.
I never am comfortable talking out loud in front of people.
If you really knew me you'd know that books are the 4th most important thing in my life.
I absolutely adore Jane Austen's works.
If you really knew me you'd know the Arizona is a second home to me.
3rd year mark was this past summer.
If you really knew me you'd know that I am very nostalgic.
Some memories are unforgettable and are left there for a purpose.
If you really knew me you'd know that whenever I say 'just kidding' 75% of the time I don't mean it.
If you really knew me you'd know how excited I am to get out of Utah.
And also to graduate.
If you really knew me you'd know that I apply hand sanitizer a lot more than I should.
I hate the idea of getting sick.
If you really knew me you'd know that keeping eye contact is hard for me.


-Sophie Hayes

remember

"Do you remember?"






 I could never forget

the sound of silence

sit silently

quietly listen

there will never be silence 

What my heart is

My heart is far more complex then a 5,000 piece puzzle.
And as vague as London fog.
My heart is both head strong and meek.
It is it's worst enemy and it's only savior.


My heart is what I am most afraid of, but also it is the thing that gives
me courage.

      //I wish to discover the unknown. Explore. I wish to explore the unknown
        Just me
              my back pack
                      and a willing heart.//
 
    

    

Death

  "The reality is you will grieve forever, you

  will not get over the loss of a loved one; you

  you will learn to live with it. You will heal

   and you will rebuild yourself around the loss

   you have suffered. You will be whole again,

  but you will never be the same again. Nor 

   should you be the same. Nor should you

 want to."

 -E.K.R

Death is never an easy subject to discuss, but eventually we reach a point in our lives where it seems to be the only subject we're talking about. Death brings on a a unique kind of pain. It's one that once it happens it will always be there. We lose something in us that we will never get back. We are changed. We are able to understand and love more deeply.

Death unifies families and friends. We may not ever be fully healed, but we are provided with love and comfort from others that are hurting just as well. I can't quite say it's inspiring, but it is moving.

I don't write about my personal experiences with death. I don't like reminiscing in the dark memories. The waves of emotion are too much for me to feel in such a fragile state. 

After all the grieving and pain that was felt we allow ourselves to come up out of the shadows and stand on our two feet stronger than ever.