Death

  "The reality is you will grieve forever, you

  will not get over the loss of a loved one; you

  you will learn to live with it. You will heal

   and you will rebuild yourself around the loss

   you have suffered. You will be whole again,

  but you will never be the same again. Nor 

   should you be the same. Nor should you

 want to."

 -E.K.R

Death is never an easy subject to discuss, but eventually we reach a point in our lives where it seems to be the only subject we're talking about. Death brings on a a unique kind of pain. It's one that once it happens it will always be there. We lose something in us that we will never get back. We are changed. We are able to understand and love more deeply.

Death unifies families and friends. We may not ever be fully healed, but we are provided with love and comfort from others that are hurting just as well. I can't quite say it's inspiring, but it is moving.

I don't write about my personal experiences with death. I don't like reminiscing in the dark memories. The waves of emotion are too much for me to feel in such a fragile state. 

After all the grieving and pain that was felt we allow ourselves to come up out of the shadows and stand on our two feet stronger than ever.

something on my mind

We will never be able to understand the world.
We live in a world that glorifies all decisions and lifestyles.... And yet society still remains
un-supporting.
The world is very contradicting.
It leaves us feeling like were constantly stumbling in the dark.
We sit in our own solitude wondering if we'll ever be on common grounds with societies standards.
We will never be able to please the world.
For a while I was taught that I could choose what I wanted and what would make me happy, but
with the world and societies standards breathing down my back I felt like my agency was none
existent. I thought I got to choose what mattered in my life.
Many people in this world are fake (what's real in this world anymore?) Don't for one second
believe they have things more figured out than you do because they don't.
We are all looking for answers. We may not even know the questions to them. We just want
closure.


The world is like a Monet. Its beautiful from a far, but up close its a mess.

|fear|

fear is something that's inescapable.
we customize our fears with out even knowing it. It's something that's unconsciously done.
if we knew what we were doing, fears wouldn't exist.

we feel alive with fear.
adrenaline and our human senses are at war within ourselves.
the beat of our hearts rings through our ears and pulses through our finger tips.

our ability to trust is destroyed when fear enters.
actions turn irrational on us. Our minds are afraid.
fear plagues the mind.

fear always has a hold on us.
tight or loose
it depends how much thought we put into it.

fear is an illusion of the mind.

-All Pictures Have Stories To Them-

All pictures have stories to them....

...... we just have to understand what they are.

how to cure an already bad day

- Be optimistic, negativity never brings happiness.

- Try to be forgiving. It's easy to make meaningless grudges toward people when
 you feel down.

- Take a nap. Sometimes you just need a bit more sleep.

- do something that makes you happy. Getting back to yourself is important.

- Get involved in service. Forget about how your day is going and change someone
else's in a positive manner.

- Notice all the love you have been given.

Things I can't | Things I can

           Things I Can't

- I can't sing. Good, I can't sing good.

- I can't draw, I wish I could though.

- I can't always get an A on my tests, even if  I spend all night studying.

- I can't be okay with the idea that one day I may lose the person I care about most.

- I can't always please people, I'm only one person.

- I can't guarantee that this week will go by how I would like it to, but I'll survive.

- I can't control people decisions, but I wish they would take a hint.

- I can't give my honest opinion to people because I know they will disagree with me. I hate conflict.

- I can't make decisions fast enough because I think too much.

- I can't stop myself from liking you even when I list out your flaws twice.

- I can't always be an honest person, honesty can hurt.

- I can't fix all my mistakes, but I do learn from them.

- I can't be happy when I know I've wronged a person. Sometimes my pride excuses my behavior.

             Things I can

- I can live my life knowing that I'm always improving those things I can't do.

- I can make long lists.

different

constantly looking
at everyone I despise,
wishing for their life.

a haiku about social media.


(my sister wrote this.)